Philosophical mood

They say "don't let a guy come between you and your best friend" but what if you're not in a good friendship and the boy coming along is the wake up call you need? What if you're sick of your friend and the boy is your free ticket out? Maybe you didn't realise that you'd be better off without that friend ... maybe the boy could be your soulmate and passing up an opportunity with him could be the worst mistake of your life ... so in conclusion I disagree with the rule.

Him

Ever had this idea of someone in your head and you think they're awesome but then you see or hear them do something and it totally ruins it? Or everything is great and you put them on a pedestal and then find out one tiny detail about them that crushes you? It sucks, aye. Especially if you know that person hasn't even thought about you once.

There is a term for it! I'm not alone!

Work paralysis: noun the inability to get work done because of it's large quantity. Similar to writer's block, but applies to all work with a deadline.

Thanks Urban Dictionary!

Is it better to be hated or unknown?

I think quite a few people at school hate me. I actually consider it a step up from being a relatively unknown "quiet funny girl". At least I'll be remembered in the years after high school. Unlike some people that everyone sees and is like "who is that person? I've never seen them before .." or "oh she was a lovely girl" "did you know her?" "no but she sat at the back of my english class ..". You get the point.

Facebook can be a vicious place. At least the insults are public and there is no destroying of evidence if you don't want to. I like how comments can be "liked" but sometimes it can feel like being ganged up on or a popularity contest. Which is what social networking sites are anyway. I really want some of the people who hate me to tell me to my face what I've done to offend them. But the people I have in mind rely heavily on being backed up by friends and hiding behind their computer screens.

That is all for now. Just ranting a bit.

Town with mum, yay -_-

A while ago I went with mum to town because she had to do some things and wanted some company. After we had been to the boring places like hardware shops, she decided that we should look around some clothes shops like Jay Jays. She kept giving me stuff to try on (mothers have the unique ability to find ugly clothes in trendy shops) and I eventually tried on something I thought was cool. Mum then told me that I couldn't have it and she was giving me stuff to try on "for fun". So her idea of fun is making me want stuff I can't have? She must have thought it was a bonding experience or something but I was pissed. The reason I am blogging this now is because she asked me this morning if I'd like to go to town with her to do some things. I politely declined.

Camp

Plp (potential leaders program) camp was freaking awesome! Because the class is mostly 'cool' people, I expected it to be dumb and that I'd get left out. But luckily it was really cool and everyone bonded (and those new friendships have even lasted back at school!). There were five tribes; fire, water, earth, air and ether. Ether is some kind of spirit thing. I was in earth tribe with Joanne Kim, Chevie Ih... I actually don't know her surname because it isn't on facebook :/ ... and also Ben Bennett, Jordan Rogers and Luke Thomas.

Activities we did as a tribe:

Firing easter eggs from a slingshot. Joanne and I were the anchors, Luke was the firing person, Chevie loaded the eggs, and Ben and Jordan held the sheet to catch them. Any tribe could catch anyone's eggs so it was cool to have that competitive aspect.

You know the riddle about the farmer having a boat to get across the river and he can only take one thing at a time, and he has a wolf, a goat and a cabbage but he can't leave the wolf and goat together or the goat and cabbage? Well the horse (representing a boat) we had was a cute white one called Pepper and Ben was the farmer who lead the horse. Chevie was the goat, Luke and Joanne were siamese cabbages, and Jordan and I were siamese wolves. We actually fell off the horse but we were ok. That activity was the first part of a challenge and we were initially coming last but won in the end.

There was a random as scavenger hunt in which we could "bid" on things in an auction using shells we had collected. Matt Davies and Megan Diment's group bid on a live chicken which everyone thought was ridiculous at the time, but it turns out we had to capture a chicken and carry it around with us the whole time. I was the one who carried our one (Charles) and it was alright. We came last in that activity but we got everything on the list.

Tribal council was an emotional evening the first night we did it. Everyone at camp shared their vulnerability and it was so great to see everyone open up (with the exception of two people). I can't say any more about it because of confidentiality reasons, but I nearly cried.

So, I have new respect for quite a few of my classmates and I really don't want this year to end :( L3PLP has the awesomest people ever! ♥

me

I feel safe writing this because none of my friends really blog anymore. So this is my little conversation with myself that is accessable to anyone but nobody will bother to read it. And that's ok with me.

I always have a wishlist because I always want a lot of things and I often forget about them, so I keep a record. There is a great variety of things on my current wishlist; material objects, people, things I want to happen etc. The only thing I will share with you right now are the material objects. I want an A7X shirt, a tripod, black cowboy boots, a white bow headband like Alice in Wonderland, Zooey Deschanel's wardrobe, a 1950's style high waisted skirt, posters of my favourite bands to put on my bedroom walls, a cute second-hand car, a part-time job that is easy and doesn't involve me interacting with people (being socially awkward and all). I can't think of anything else but there is way more. Hmm maybe I can tell you a few of the people on my wishlist ... Rupert Grint, Robert Pattinson, Bill Kaulitz, Austin Winkler, Jeremy Davis, Ian Somerhalder, Sinister from Daisy of Love, Tim Urban, M. Shadows, Vin Diesel, Clement Louis, Dave Strauchman, Zac Efron (when he was in the first and second HSM movies), Viggo Mortensen, Johnny Depp, Jude Law ... I could keep on listing them but nah. What a boring blog this would be. I'm not claiming that it's currently interesting or anything though.

I love taking photos but I haven't in a really long time. Since NYE I believe. And it's late March now. I have heaps of creative ideas stored in my brain but none of my friends are into photography as much as me. Well not openly anyway. I will just have to take photos of myself and/or inanimate objects. I will end up with a massive compilation of photos that will never see the light of day.

P.S. I would like to say that ***** is a two-faced bitch and I would not hesitate to give her a hiding if she had a go at me, kthanxbye.

P.P.S. Pixelating your genital region in photos is hilarious even if there's no indecent exposure. Just makes it look funny as.